It’s been a few weeks since my last post. I could say the reason for not writing is that I was too busy, or that I didn’t have a meaningful topic to share or that it was a case of writer’s block. Yet that would not be true. The thing is that nothing seemed to want to come through. The desire to sit down and write simply was not there. Of course, I could have ‘forced’ myself to write from a sense of obligation or pressure to ‘serve others.’ A feeling that I must ‘do’ this post on a weekly basis. Being a mother, coach and physician, I find it extremely difficult not to be ‘doing’ something! In our increasingly complex and fast-paced lives, most of us would agree that there is no shortage of ‘things to do’!
Are we human beings or human doings?
This past January, I made a resolution around BEING and not just doing. I even felt inspired to create a TO BE list for 2018 which I shared in a previous post.
To be happy.
To be grateful.
To be at peace.
From this space of BEING happy, grateful and at peace, I did not feel guided to blog. I did feel inspired to spend more time BEING with family and friends- taking quiet walks on the canal path freshly covered with pristine snow, making snow angels and even participating in a snowball throwing contest- which I won! 😊 Last week, I even gifted myself with a weekend online retreat in A Course in Miracles.
What is the purpose? What is this for?
I realize that life is not about ‘doing’ or how much or how fast we are ‘doing’ but being clear about the underlying motivation behind the doing. Are we coming from love we simply want to share? Do we feel our hearts bursting with joy that naturally extends like fragrance from a beautiful flower? Or are our actions based in fear, guilt or external obligation? Do we feel a need to do something because if we don’t, then somehow, we feel judged, inadequate or unworthy?
These are not easy questions to ask because we may feel afraid of the answers. So, naturally we keep ourselves busy ‘doing.’ Yet often this very ‘doing’ creates illness, disconnection and dis-ease in our bodies. If we stop, pause and let our inner wisdom guide us, we may find that the ‘doing’ still happens but perhaps at a slower pace, in more creative and fun ways than we could ever imagine. We sink into the present moment with each action instead of constantly racing to mark off as many things as quickly as possible on our never ending ‘to-do’ list.
More to come
Going forward, let me assure you that I’m not retiring from blogging. Not at all. Yet I am feeling guided to step back, simply breathe and post as it feels inspired. 😊
I invite you to reflect on one activity (from your work or home life) that you feel you want to step back from or do with less frequency. What holds you back from doing this? What are your fears and concerns? How would you enjoy spending that time instead?
I would love to hear what you discover.